Did I mention that I have PMS? Maybe that's my reason for being so depressed and demanding. I wanted to call Dan today, but there were so many things to do so I didn't remember to call him until 9:15, and then I didn't know where to call him. I want to have band practice tomorrow, but Caleb is busy or something and I talked to James Wurdeman tonight while I was buying groceries and it sounds like Dan's going to Madison with him. We need to practice more!!!
Last night I had a dream about Aaron. I dreamt that I was at someone's house and he drove up to it and then drove away. I woke up pissed at him. I think I'm mad at Aaron a lot. But I'm not sure if they're legitimate reasons to get mad at someone. If they are, I should probably talk to him about it- maybe that's my problem, I play too many stupid mind games, I'm trying to cut back but I think that's just how I am. I don't tell him if there's a problem, I just change my tone of voice, mope a bit, and make sure that he knows he did something wrong. But when he asks me about it, I don't really tell him. Then again half the time I don't really know why I'm mad at him. Maybe that's it for me, I'll never have a normal relationship ever, and I'll die an old lonely cat lady with a hunch back! I know that I get mad or maybe jealous when he's around Amanda Marcot. Well the thing is, I know that they've had sex- and while that's enough to get me going, he hangs out with her. He says she's a really cool chick and when they're together he'll make some comment like, "Looks like you need some roughing up" and then he'll do his normal 'wrestling' thing or whatever. OK, so I know that he does that with pretty much everyone- especially girls, but with her it bothers me because I know where that has lead to in the past!
I give up!